Creative frustrations

I have had a spectacularly crappy couple of weeks – my dog was almost killed by two off-lead Ridgeback crosses (see above, taken after surgery); I worked hours that made sleep impossible; and in between I have had to finish edits of various projects.  I hate editing under time-pressure, because inevitably things get missed – and sometimes the things missed create trying consequences.  As the chess novel contains graphics of actual games, I am doing my best to get it right, but fear that there will be a clanger somewhere.  I also read a recently published book, Tokyo Hostess by Clare Campbell, partly about the murder of my friend Carita Ridgway, which made me grieve again for the senseless loss of her, and made me feel helpless about the saturation of the world with various forms of evil.  Oh, and there’s a significant birthday coming up: the kind of birthday which prompts you to think about what it is you want from life, and whether there are things you can do to make those things happen.

The thing I want most is time: time to write, think, create, rest.  To see more of the people I love.  To connect.  Simple luxuries.

All I need now is a plan.

 

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Creative frustrations

I have had a spectacularly crappy couple of weeks – my dog was almost killed by two off-lead Ridgeback crosses (see above, taken after surgery); I worked hours that made sleep impossible; and in between I have had to finish edits of various projects.  I hate editing under time-pressure, because inevitably things get missed – and sometimes the things missed create trying consequences.  As the chess novel contains graphics of actual games, I am doing my best to get it right, but fear that there will be a clanger somewhere.  I also read a recently published book, Tokyo Hostess by Clare Campbell, partly about the murder of my friend Carita Ridgway, which made me grieve again for the senseless loss of her, and made me feel helpless about the saturation of the world with various forms of evil.  Oh, and there’s a significant birthday coming up: the kind of birthday which prompts you to think about what it is you want from life, and whether there are things you can do to make those things happen.

The thing I want most is time: time to write, think, create, rest.  To see more of the people I love.  To connect.  Simple luxuries.

All I need now is a plan.

 

4 thoughts on “Creative frustrations

  1. Anonymous

    Time

    All the good things in life take time – making bread or soup, spinning yarn and knitting it, thinking of writing, writing itself, reading others’ writing, learning poems, walking dogs…not to mention time to hanging out with the kids – time to hear the stories they tell of their lives. Why is it that none of us have enough? 2010 is the year I manage my time better to open up enough cracks in the day for all these things to happen. Maybe we should make a pact! I’ll be in the West in March, Julia – hope to catch up. Going to talk Lesley into launching my third collection of poetry, Marriage for Beginners.

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  2. simmone

    your poor dog 😦
    bad dog owners make me so angry – there’s been some crapness in the stars I think. I hope you feel better – my antidote for lurking sad is to watch elvis movies and eat chocolate (stay away from the gin!)

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  3. Anonymous

    that is a terrible picture!

    or, more realistically, a terrible injury! (you have a very cute dog underneath that very very sad expression. ps i love your simple luxuries XXX jay

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